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Wednesday, October 1
finally making my shift to LJ! i love LJ i hearts LJ! woohooo. see you there ((:
hello LJ! http://orangehazel.livejournal.com
Monday, September 29
i'll STRIVE to sleep earlier at 12am from now onwards.. terrible.
Monday, September 22
it's nothing good tho. =X
OH MAN. can still feel my heart beating..
Saturday, September 20
maybe she's right. when u lower or have no expectations, that's when disappointment disappears. suddenly the word 'expectation' becomes so scary. there are things i cant comprehend and they wont be resolved until i understand. the actual incident is not freaking important to me at all. it's how people handle it and how they come to that decision and act on it.
what about grace?
Eph 4:31-32 Get rid of all bitterness and rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behaviour. Instead, be kind to each other, tender hearted, forgiving and another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.
i have this verse right in front of me now. God forgave us of our sins just like that. i really wonder how He did that. it's irrational.reason-less.against gravity. so how can i do that?
one more thing, will people ever say they are not ok when u ask them if they are ok? if your 6th sense tells you that it's not, then it's better to not ask that question.. just be prepared to be ignored.
i'm going for a run.
Wednesday, September 17
Saturday, September 13
but the usual people i talk to arent here.
siannns.
nvm. i'll be sleeping in about 10 minutes' time
frisbee later!
Wednesday, September 10
yest's run was good. 8km 8km!! finally, i could take my time off schoolwork and do something i like. it was like the last few rounds and i was having bad stitches even though my legs could still carry me further..and yipeng just went on and on talking about the foolish man who walked from sunrise to sunset to mark out boundaries for lands so that he could own them. oh wells, i knew the ending of the story..the man died in the end and did not get anything. am i not right? this is what i've read tho. and mr huang, you forgot to tell me the ending of your story!!! -.-! fine. haha..i'll ask him again on saturday or sth.
the past few weeks has been nothing but work. schoolwork. readings. projects. piano teaching. no rest at all. it's not outta choice that i'm doing all these but i realised consistency is a must. i cant afford to slow down my pace nor do i have the stamina to increase my pace. just like running..i'm in pain with the stitches..yet i have to go on..yeah..
managed to catch up a little bit with my friend on our way home after the run..it was kinda nice to just stop doing everything and talk. hai. good times are short lived though..maybe it's only when you don't have time then you learn to cherish the time.
Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by proayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus -Philippians 4:6-7
how vast the knowledge is and how much of it can we conquer?
on a lighter note, i'm meeting my crescent friends on fri!! ((: happy.
how it was like to be comforted by You
how You brought joy to my life
how You brought me through difficult times
how You set that peace in my heart
how You stood by me.
remember..
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have i gotten back to square one again? so funny.
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once again, it's another tougher sem ahead (ta i he n desu ne! ^^!!)
Sunday, September 7
which would u choose to be?
actually it's painful to be both. hur hur.
Saturday, September 6
Book: Reflexive communication in a culturally diverse workplace
NICENICENICE. Thumbs up. ((:
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something abstract / random / whatever you call that.
everyone knows i like to eat waffles right. so i ate and ate and ate alot of waffles. what's good and what's not good? dun care. waffles is nice. i only eat what i like. SO! one fine day, i decided i had enough of waffles. ENOUGH. bye waffles, i think i shouldnt eat so much of you. then i tasted something 'new'..not exactly new to to everyone..but previously my life was waffles and waffles and still waffles. sooo now i've moved on to fishball mee. it must be dry MEE POK with ketchup and when i eat it..each mouthful of noodles must go with another mouthful of soup. occasionally with chopped chilli padi. only chilli padi, the normal chopped chilli is NOT NICE. then i'll get that blissful feeling cos my mouth is filled with..erm. noodles and soup. yeahh. XIN FU de gan jue. HAHAHA. ok. i mean..not that i never tasted fishball mee before..but it din come across to me as so nice. haha..
but i still quite like waffles?
then few days ago i saw.. i forgot what's that..what was the craze during jc days? the one that doraemon eats. i forgot. OMG. i even forgot the name. whatever~~
Monday, September 1
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just a short one.
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wise and wisdom.
correct me if i am wrong, wise is the adjective of wisdom? let's do some googling..
wise:
having the power of discerning and judging properly as to what is true or right; possessing discernment, judgment, or discretion.
wisdom:
the quality or state of being wise; knowledge of what is true or right coupled with just judgment as to action; sagacity, discernment, or insight.
main point: wisdom must come with the action. ((:
Saturday, August 23
this saturday was awesome. was out with a long time friend to watch the post national day fire works at the singapore flyer! the timing was like how crucial can! and we caught it jussssst in time. yeah..
it was just awesome la. but i wasnt the one with the photos. he was. yepyep. it's on facebook.
thanks alot bro!!
Wednesday, August 20
Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost
Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross
You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen
To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your hear
this song kinda struck a chord in my heart today. no idea why..but.. I havent been close to God recently. feeling carnal in all aspects of my life..and i know. i know working has always been a pitfall for me. money and its temptation.. but it was since young my parents had kinda driven into me that money is important, always think of how to profit from things that you do. You know what? that kind of thinking is still ever present in the family. And ever since i had the ability to earn money, this has gotten me into a struggle. Simple example, my whole holiday was devoted to working. my exams end on fri, i started work on monday worked till 3 days before the next semester started, had a short holiday in between. My parents encouraged it and they are more than happy to see me working.
where lies the repentance in me?
But i have so many wishlists? From a car to a fujifilm finepix S100fs to shopping sprees to holiday getaways to revamping my room to coloured eye contacts to blah blah blah. the list goes on.
Living in the light. ha. i must be clouded by darkness now.
Lead me to the Cross..once again..
you might ask..so what are gonna do from now? i dunno..track my expenses?
1 John 1:5-7
This is the message he has given us to announce to you: God is light and there is no darkness in him at all. So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God buy go on living in spiritual darkness. We are not living in the truth. But if we are living in the light of God's presence, just as Christ is, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from every sin. (NLT)
I like this perspective:
the fellowship with each other that brings us close to God. The responsibility that we take to be accountable to one another that allows us to keep each other going and come back to God who cleanses us of our sins. I wouldnt have continued to try to 'Live in the light' if not for the people around me. Their testimony of trying to do so is sufficiently encouraging for me. I need my friends (and God, of course) around me and i have only come to realise this only when i was in J1. ha. and since then, there's this fear to lose the people around me but then again, what i have done to show my concern? what have i done for others? What have i been focusing on? What have I been intently concentrating on to be blind to other people's hurt? Where comes the heavenly wisdom?
Some verse in Proverbs says..(i cant remember exactly)..the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
ok. talking about wisdom would lead me to another whole new topic..my mind is always coherently messy. coherent to me tho..like the splatter of stars in the sky but somehow you can make a picture outta it. haha.. anyway i dont have to time to type it down now..gtg.
Lead me to the cross..
Wednesday, August 13
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I'm not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I'm broken
I'm broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I'm falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again
I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can't see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I'll leave it in Your hands
Saturday, August 9
That's when i love you by Aslyn.
sooo nice.
haha..anyway..my laptop broke down again..i'm so sad..nicky's gone.
like gone.
God, why?
actually, it's more like why to alot of other things.
my dad offered his laptop.
i guess i'll settle for it. =(
i'm just feeling weird lately. dunno why.
Wednesday, August 6
rubbish.
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i went to ikea after work today. like a sudden urge. so..yeah.. wanna deco my room. it's getting abit boring.. hMMMs. if only i could paint my room again in a new colour.
nvms.
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Sunday, August 3
I took this off stella's blog. Haha. Okok. Abit bo liao la. But I tot it was quite fun to get to know someone better.
Here goes..
- What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?Sam Heng, I wanted to get her number and she missed call me.
- Do you ever turn your cell phone off? Hmm. Now that I think of it, amazingly I don't. maybe i'll just die earlier because of the radiation. bwaha. kidding lurhhh.
- What happened yesterday night? I spoke to a new friend online.
- When did you last cry? I think when I was watching a drama 2 weeks ago.
- What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter? Wah. I either just eat it just like that or with my beloved affles.
- What do you want in your life right now? get outta Singapore.
- Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up with your hood? I do none. The day I'm not called hazel is the day I carry an umbrella.ha.
- What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? Hmms. I think that would be my laptop.
- What bottom are you wearing now? some auntified shorts. Bwahaha.
- What's the nicest text in your inbox say? 'thank you for your gift. It is perfect. Take care' from my dad. That's the sweetest he ever sent alr. Haha
- Do you tend to make relationships complicated? I don't get it. Ummms. I don't think so tho.
- Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? Nopes.
- What was the last movie you caught? Eh. Dark Knight. In Bangkok.
- What are you proud of? Dunno. mm.
- What does the oldest text message in you inbox say? Umm. Right now? lemme get it. It says 'Aye you free on fri?' by Brenda tang. Haha
- What was the last song you sang out loud? Oh. It was just few minutes ago. Xu Yao Ni de Ai – F.I.R.
- Do you have any nicknames? Used to. Lao Chen, Orange, Wei wei.
- What does your last received text message say? 'Same here' by Shawn
- What time did you go to bed last night? 1am++.
- Are you currently happy? Umm. Partially.
- Who gives you best advice? God of course.
- Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? Oh. That's madness! So fattening!
- Who did you talk on the phone last night? Umm. My dad? Asked him to pick me.
- Is anything bugging you right now? yeap
- Who was the last thing / person to make you laugh? Hmms. Oh. That german guy who had acupuncture. Haha
- Do you wear toe socks? Nopes. Looked funny.
- Who was the last person you missed a call from? Umm. Sam Heng?
- Have you ever had your heart broken? Ummmm. Yeah.
- What annoys you most in a person? Hmms. Forcing me to do things his/her way.
- Do you have a crush on anyone? Oh yes. Mr Park! Hahaha.
- Have you ever done cocaine? Please believe me if I say yes. =.=!
- What is the colour of your room? Yellow.
- Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar? Yes of course. Ahahaha.
- Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap'? uhh. I think so.
- Who was the last person to lay in your bed? No one except me.
- Who was the last person to hug you? Uhh. Dun have.
- What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on? Hmm. Hi?
- Do you have a life? No man. Work work work.
- Have you ever think someone died when they really didn't? whoa. Then we must be living continents apart. Umm. No.
- What is the reason behind your profile song? Uhh. Used to have one. Doesn't apply anymore.
- Who was the last person you saw in your dream? Uhh. Tough one. I cant remember what I dreamt of last night.
- Last time you smiled? Today. (:
- Have you changed this year? Yeah. I guess so.
- What are you listening to right now? Jay Sean – Maybe
- Are you talking to someone when you are doing this? Nopes.
- Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? Er. What if I trip over sth even when my eyes are open?
- Is there a quote you live by? Yepps. Hebrews 12:1
- Do you want someone you can't have? Ha. Used to.
- Have you ever played an instrument? Yepps. Piano and bass clarinet
- What was the worst idea you've had in the week? hmm. Dunno
- What were you doing last night at 11:00pm? Driving
- Are you happy with your love life right now? yepps. Happy single
- What song describes your love life? Eh. Dunno. dun have.
- Does the person know that you like him/her? Ah. Nopes. It's just for fun. XD
- Who always make you laugh? Umm. No particular person.
- Do you speak other language other than English? Mandarin.
- Are you blond? Dyed that colour once, my mum said I looked like a rebellious kid.
- Middle name? dun have
- What are you doing tomorrow? Work.
- What do you think you are like? Umm. The weather.
- Who will you choose to die with? Umm. No one. Waffles? I love them.
- Where have you been today? Faith Methodist Church, ACJC. Friend's house for tennis later.
- What game do you play often? My Nintendo ds. Zelda.
- Who are you missing right now? ummm.
- If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose? None.
- What are you doing right now? waiting for sms.
- Which primary school are you from? Geylang Methodist Primary School Pri 1 – 2, CHIJ Kellock Pri 3-6
- Name 3 colours that you like. Orange! Pink, 2nd on the list. Red.
- What emotions you like to show? Anger.
- What is life to you? God's plan.
- If you have something troubling you, what will you do? Find a trusted friend to talk.
- Who did you last chat in msn today? 1am before I slept? Eddy and Gabriel
- Who do you admire the most? Most like the most? Dunno.
- Which month are you born in? Sept
- How are you feeling right now? hmm. Tired.
- What is the time now? 2.11pm
- Where are you now? home
- What colour did you use to dye hair? I had dark brown that turned out to be like jet black. It's natural now.
- Why are you doing this test? Cossssss..dunno.i feel like doing?
- What do you do when you're moody? Just be emo, appear offline on msn and go sleep.
- At which age you wish to get married? Get a boyfriend first then say. -.-!
- Who is most important to you? God.even tho I always neglect Him =(
- Do you think you have enough confidence? No.
- Who is the person you trust most? God.
- Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? Yes. For Both figuratively and literally.
- If you can have a dream come true, what would it be? 2148309420543589348509million dollars.
- What is your goal this year? To save enough to go for a holiday.
- Do you believe in eternity love? Yes.
- Who do you love? God.
- Do you really think it's Global Warming now? dots. yeah if not why am I feeling fried now?
- What feeling you hate the most? The PMS feeling and the over eat feeling.
- Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? Yes?no? I dunno?
- Who cares for you most? My mum.
- What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Struggling with priorities now. dunno.
- Do you hate this quiz? Haha. Actually no. kinda makes me think about myself.
- What have you regretted doing in your whole life? To lose my temper.
- What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? then I'll be very sad.
- What if your stead 2 timed you? bah. Say bye bye.
- Who would you sabo next? Dunno. Joel Wong? He always sabo me. Haha.
There's one question missing I think.
Bah. Opps. I'm going to gab's house now. tennis!

