today is such such such a DISGUSTING day...hai~ finally met after 2yrs of toking. the min i saw him, i couldn't believe my eyes..he was the last person on this earth i would ever wanna befriend with. he was wearing this gold-rimmed specs, not much hair though, combed neatly n centre parted. he was skeletal thin, thinner than mr loh, he had weird eyes, had pimples(good! cant he take care of his face?) some hair above the lips. my first reaction was like omigod, pls tell me tt u're not him. but he answered wif a nod. i have nthg to say. all i could think was, he was definitely not THE ONE! i din want to be his fren, so wad if u say i'm so conscious abt appearance...that's the way how the human mind works. at least for me. now i noe y it is so impt to ask for a person's pic, now i'm the same as THEM. yar..i've learnt my lesson. pple in irc are all wad the taiwanese called "kong long" yar kong long...i finally noe how i feel, i pity him, cos now wad i think is, i haf wasted 2yrs on a nerd! if i liked him, i wouldn't think this way! yucks man~ b4, i was trying to deceive myself into thinking that i'm diff frm others n dun mind looks. but i mind more than ne other person~ oh god! pls help me! i want to "break ties" wif that person but juz dunno how to do so! i feel so disgusted to tok to that person now. no wonder his mum is afraid he cant get a partner..juz in a day, he turned frm a fren to a stranger. i din wan to associate with him nemore. the word again is: disgusted! yucks! i guess he sort of noe already. we r worlds' apart! while he was eating, i saw the bandaged hand but i couldn't bring myself to ask nehting abt it! i felt guilty, i was afraid that someone would see me wif him! someone told me "if u like someone, when u get close to him, ur heart would beat faster, n would be jealous if he is toking happily wif another girl" ok..i feel the exact opposite of all these! my heart does not beat faster, instead all i could think of was to get as far away as i could frm him. err!! i rather he was toking happily to another girl~ i mean it! i swear! i dun give it a damn man~ so wad if he likes me, i dun care nemore, no way i'm going stead wif such kind of person -__- *shakes head*

totally sucks day~ i'm angry tt i wasted my time for a nerd! so stupid to think tt he cant look that bad newae....yUcKs yUcKs