i'm so sad, sometimes i feel like crying but cant seem to do it. but so sour lar..i hate tt feeling. sad sad...JM U INFLUENCE ME AR!
keep on thinking of this cheng yu,
"qian yan huan xiao"
is my life really tt? m i juz putting a front? or i'm truely happy. if i was, den i wouldn't be questioning myself now. =( i dunno. sometimes i cant help feeling confused. i want somebody to be there for me. for me to fa xie...ahhhh!! y muz i feel this way, i juz feel that sometimes i'm so lonely. very empty. guess it's abt the poly n jc thingey...y muz my mum wan me to go poly so much? i scared i tell her i change my mind she may not be happy. i noe lar, i'm responsible for this family oso. but my future is oso impt rite? i wrong step may lead u to eternal regret. n of course i not looking forward to tt rite? -_-

sometimes i find tt my future is juz so..so...blur?