haha...maybe i've grown old already. it's different frm the time where u have crushes n stuff. yes..girls are pretty. guys are handsome. u wouldn't expect ne girl to haf a crush on a nerd or ugly guy n vice versa too...so issit fair for the not-so-pretty-or-handsome ones to haf different kind of treatment? perhaps some pple are juz not fated to haf that kind of spotlight like some others...which cum to think of it..this world is really unfair. it is never fair newae rite? i really haf to agree cos i myself see it that way. but the thing is, i cant help to envy those who can get the "spotlight" n i cant. y? it's always like that, either u are it or u are not. so y m i in the middle?.....
there is somehow a clear separation between the sec3s n 4s. they r still in the "crush" period...i juz feel that my frens are lacking sthg. maybe i shouldn't have cum to crescent. imagine being in a girls' sch for straight 8 yrs...no wonder some became...haha..but i'm not.
i say that i've grown old is b/c i feel diff crushes to me are like...nthg already? i cant really feel nething. i dun dare to feel nething cos i'm not supposed to? i cant remember ne faces i saw at vch today...it juz comes n goes...so vague so blur. i cant help but to feel some sadness n disappointment....there's difference. sec4s are like the oldest in the sch. the word is OLD, pple link it to "ageing" n stuff....yar...
today we left class at 1200 den went to vch, came home around 630. cum back to hear my mum nag n nag again. abt her pressure n going mad. is not as if i'm not under pressure? somemore i still haf to put up wif all her crap. listen to all her rubbish n i've no one to tell? she doesn't even listen when i tell her. again..the world id unfair....
i dunno y i keep on remember wad pk said, "but it doesn't suit u" it keeps on ringing in my mind. somehow it's up to the stage that i may detest her for saying that. i noe she's more girlish looking than me, better looking. that doesn't gif her the right to say all those rite? it's my business. i'll nvr forget that monday, which is the day after i cut my hair, during assembly. she was like saying, the hairstyle doesn't suit me. noe wad? forgive me for saying this, it's really none of ur business. hu r u to criticise me? i'm so irritated...urgh....=( it really made me very conscious of my hair. i hate this i hate this...i can really nvr forget it....

could u look me in the eye n tell me that u're happy now...