i am so fucking pissed off now!!!! i hate the family gathering. i hate to see my cousins. i hate to be there!!! it's totally damn boring. everytime the next day, i get damn depressed. ok...there's some reason to this but it's inconvenient to say...urghhhh...i dunno! so irritating. go there like some clown to oni smile and smile!i hate this! i cant be myself! i dun like to be there! but i cant run away! that that...urghhh!!!! i dunno wad to say. my sis is another arse-HOLe!!! she juz cant fucking stop tt sms-ing huh? and after tt trying to act so sian! heu..everybody's sian, u dun haf to act it out u noe. i juz dun feel ne bond with my relatives...urghh..like some fake relations with them. i dunno...urghhh!!! i m feeling depressed now. extreme.somemore a family gathering seems to be a gathering to see who has got the latest technology and who bought wad the most expensive. my aunt was like saying 'i bought my digicam at $$ and the pouch at $$. not expensive ok....blah blah blah and some shit'...wad kind of fake thing is this. urghhh..i dunno..so FAKE!!! everybpdy's like asking me, how did u do for ur o's. especially tt uncle karen(wadeva the way it's spelt) trying to compare me with fedora...i mean hu cares? ur daughter's not clever enuff?? compare and compare and compare..is tt wad all adults can only do??? tt whole evening was juz some stupid waste of time gathering ok...i mean my own family look so...i dunno. i dun wanna say. cos i HATE tt word.
den in the morning, i went to ps. end up saw gc, ly, ps...ok...gc juz stared and stared. hu cares? ps was a lil' more polite. she waved and said hi. so i no choice, juz wave back. den awhile later, i saw mingshan. i think she was meeting them...hu cares newae? heck lar. juz in the end i din get my phone!!!!! when i was so close to getting it!!!! y muz i see the wrong price?? or issit juz my father's plot...so weird rite...and dunno. and they could haf gave us the straits times main page. den we could haf saw it. urghhhhh....i am so depressed now!!! i cant stand tt laughing of my cousin and she keeps on flirting with...urghhh...cant stand it. cant she juz get a bf herself?? i dun think she lacked newae. but her laughing is juz too..fake? i dun like it. i nvr liked her newae.