i found the word to describe my feelings now...SUCKY...urghh..i noe this is bad but it's really how i feel. plus fatigue...yar i wanna analyse how i feel now. like y? how? solution? lemme see. i cant be really who i m...i dun understand y. it's like so fake of me. frm wad i see, the way i treat shu is like how i treat those hi-bye frens..nvm..my own term. i think i feel really bad abt it. but i juz cant be my crappy self..like wad i m like in crescent?? this juz isnt me u noe...it's true. i think i haf split personality...urghh...i wanna treat shu the way like i treat jimei. it's like very diff. i still feel very like a stranger than a fren. i cant open up. it's so weird. like juz cannot lo~Y? Y? can neone enlighten me~~~ help~~