i feel so shit now.i dunno how to describe. ya...i dun like this.i think rite..it is always frens who ultimately makes my sad. not guys. yar..i went to shumin's blog and it's like..somehow i feel very distant frm her now. okie...let's tok abt sthg more happy.
i have realised i haf changed frm a bo-chap-guy person to a totally boy crazy person. i haf totally no idea why, or maybe i noe. the transition frm all gers sch to co-ed sch bah~I cant concentrate at all!! oh well, went to macritchie for xcountry today and i waited for the stupid bus for like 20mins!! ya...i was so afraid that i was gonna be late.saw ying xian in the bus i said 'hi' and din went to tok to her, cos she was with her pri sch mates..i think i was being antisocial~ya..reached there and lucky i wasnt late. saw waisan and meixin, then i was like 'thank god' haha...ya...went for the run..i was the 134th position, o well...last time i wasnt even like in the top 200 or wadeva..oh well..it was a great encouragement personally for myself haha. then had those prize presentation stuff. and guess who i saw? lol..SST(i still prefer calling him tt) oh...his name is J.T. btw..haha i saw him once after the run at the milo van there, and twice at the prize presentation there...lol..then he was like sitting right in front of me! such a great view..lol...okie..although i'm being high and excited here..tt doesnt mean that i like him..erm...i oso dunno how to say..infatuation bah~
after tt, me and my CG went for outing...we went to cineleisure to watch a sucky boring show..haha..wasted my time and money newaes. -_-""" we went there..thinking to watch some movie, but everyone was hungry so decided to go eat first..we were gonna catch the 3.00pm show..and it was oni like 11am?? ya...went to eat..then they decided to go bowling~afew of them played and during tt, sm was like telling me tt andy is cute. i was like...err...ok...i sort of expected it lar...when u poke into stuff too much..feelings start to develop bah~it's like...hmm...a weird feeling lar. i m not saying i like andy or nething but it's juz so weird lor..i dunno how to say..but now i really think tt it's no good to get close to a person of the opp. gender~~ -_-"" actually for sm's case, i kinda like expected it lor...i mean she dun need to care so much de bah~ i wouldnt oso...cos she like always tok to him...okie..put tt aside now..oh! b4 bowling, we went to take neoprints! lol..it was so fun...juz to take pics liddat..so fun..really.
i think shumin was like not happy at all, guess it's me bah~i nvr noe how to cheer a person up. i dunno y..after tt she like dun care me liao...or wad..i dunno lar..i feel kinda affected..i oso dunno y. i dunno wad to say...saying i'm not a sensitive person..i m a sensitive person in fact. is juz tt i dun wanna show it bah~arghh..
came back...got scolded by mum..angry for the same thing again...haha...i feel tt it's soooo pointless..oh wad the heck..i really dun feel like quarrelling with her cos i was freaking shagged.i dun wan to think nemore...
i hate myself i guess. eric is like 'gone' cos i initiated to give him up. perhaps it was really a rash decision.i dunno. but i feel like no focus suddenly, i need to think of someone. neone tt wld be able to...i dunno.


ahh...freaking depressed. i dun wanna tok to neone