newae...wad's the point of gg on...no point rite. both of us are so miserable.but i dunno y..my heart juz doesnt wanna let go. it's so stupid.i realised for my last entry, most of it was abt weiyang.i m so disappointed.ok..i juz realised wad i wan to type was..the fact is i din wan weiyang to be doin all these..i wanted HIM to do all these..but he juz din. y??i m very scared one day i might juz like weiyang.and on the other side eric will be terribly hurt. and i dun wan tt to happen. cos i dun wan him to be sad. i dun like..cos i will be sad too. then weiyang..when he was sad abt his results i was also sad. so y liddat??i said eric was a 2timer n now I am the 2TIMER.

shit..sthg juz happened..i opened an email and virus was found. ass man..i hope my comp has not been infected. scanning the comp now..shucks..

back to my blog.

yes i m now the 2timer m i?? i hate this feeling cos it's wrong..u cannot be so selfish. rite..and eric din msg me.he din!he juz always disappoint me doesnt he??ok...maybe he juz doesnt like me..i dunno.ok..y m i pointing out all these? to show that he din do nething n weiyang did alot of things?i saw eric's testimonials..pple say he is a funny guy. but he isnt to me! y is that so? --disappointment fills my heart again-- it's wrong..sthg's wrong..i feel utterly disappointed. firstly with myself and with him.i m here pointing out wad he din do and how bad he is. and i oni stopped awhile to think wad i din do for him.then feel guilty then gone liddat.tt's not the point rite hah it's wrong.i feel like asking him..if i were to becum ur memory, wad kind of memory wld that be? very tempted to ask him. but he probably doesnt wan to tok to me now..i dunno. i always make him feel so miserable. i hate it sia...i m the culprit..culprit of everything la...

i m so so sorry....