ok..hMmm..i wonder wad m i feeling now. things juz cant seem to work out. maybe there's a need for a cooling period.actually i dunno wad's wrong with eric. i mean meeting a fren is tt hard??maybe he juz cant see it in this aspect. which is kinda sad lar..cos in this way rite, we cant even stay as frens (i suppose). cos i dun like his posseessive nature n he doesnt like me to haf guy frens. which is not possible unless u kill all other guys in this world rite? aha amusing. newaes..abviously tmr we are not gg out already cos he doesnt haf the mood.everytime he pang seh me..i think i feel kind of disappointed cos i juz wanna see how he looks like..haha but in any other cases i dun sad at all. it's like 'ok u cant go with me, tt's too bad. i shall find others' which is weird..cos i m supposed to feel sad? maybe i havent felt the effect of it..hmmm i dunno. cos it's like the first time i decided not tok to him cos i felt it was ridiculous.or maybe it wasnt aha he wasnt tactful enuff i guess..sending me to fumes again. argh...ya. i think we can stay as frens lar..cos somethings cannot be worked out. it's juz who he is n who i m..n we are still not mature enuff to say tt 'oh..if i really love u, i shld accept as who u r and compromise' this isnt gonna work becouse i m the oni one trying! he's like all jealous when i merely mentions about any guy and tt i haf to explain everything like i dun like him(any guy fren) and stuff liddat to assure that his insecurity was unwanted? even when i said a fren was cuming over to bake egg tarts he asked me 'O...a guy fren?' tt is some stupid qtn to ask rite? guys bake tarts?? ridiculous.sometimes i m really appalled by him. i dunno wad to say. it's sooooo stupid. come to think abt it..wad abt him? he has gal-frens too rite..so m i supposed to like get jealous n stuff? oh no...i may feel alittle at the start but i wont ask until like him and i m fine with that..another thing is he is those type of guys who likes to stay at home n i m the complete opp. i like to go out whether if there's nething to do..i like to go out! we are complete diff over here.
he keeps on saying that din expect to meet so fast.n after tt says: o i really wanna be with u...wad's the pt.haha...i sian diao already lar..i think i see something is ending soon..cos if he doesnt want to continue, then i shall not even try to. maybe he's 'determination' is starting to waver bah..ahha..since he said he's confused. newaes last night's matter was already over. n i dun intend to bring my 'pissed-ness' over to today.cos so not worth it rite....

maybe u like me more than i do.maybe it was juz an infatuation.maybe ur words did haf a deadline.maybe the scar isnt there nemore.maybe it was juz an illusion altogether.