haiz..din end the day off very well in sch today..sianz...actually wanted to go take a walk outside after sch but was carrying alot of stuff..so..ya..
ok..last nite couldnt study at all cos i was soo tired..everytime i look at the econs text, i was like dozing off..couldnt take it anymore so i decided to take a short 10 min nap budden after slping, i couldnt wake up at all! my brain was like gg to shut down already..so i decided to go slp. then..woke up arnd 4 am to study..think it was much better cos think my brain was 'fresh' at tt time haha..ok..manage to study abit..think the mind din work well..haiz..dunno wad to say lar..then..went to sch after tt..tired as usual..the day was not tt bad..then came to econs..did the test..i shld say..it wasnt hard..but juz that i din haf time at all!! haiz..the 'momentum'(?) all gone liao..cos..so long nvr write 2 essays in 45 mins already..then..it was so cosl n stuff..so..the ending of the story is i din finish the paper lar..it was so irritating..a mad rush for time..haiz..dunno wad to do..my script sure being torn one.. >_< if oni there was 5 mins more...wadeva lar..
then it came to PW, so the proposal wasnt supposed to be handed up today..it was a last min decision by the tchers..sianz..lucky i din sacrificed my econs time for this proposal if not i sure kill mr lim de...haha..
ok..during pw..think..as usual lar..i din tok much..erm..wait..issit 'usual'? haiz..i oso dunno wad to contribute, all the schwork n stuff, where got time to go n do research?? somemore is like that period of time, the comp wasnt at home, so i din do the research! practically i cant! haiz..so many so many reasons..busy to the extent that i din even touch my comp yesterday!! haiz...dunno lar..then there was this assessment, where the CT would haf to go arnd and look at the members and engagind the discussion is? erm..ya sth liddat..the fact is..alvin n alex had so much stuff to tok then i juz sit there quietly lor..i haf come to realise sth abt how my brain works..when pple can contribute alot..tt's the time when my brain goes into a sleeping/stoning mode where it oni absorbs stuff and ideas cant really flow (apart frm the fact that i din do any research) so when mr lim was there, i din really say anything lar..somemore (no info)...after tt mr lim was telling me i was abit too quiet..erm..wad can i do rite..anyway alvin tried to explain to mr lim oso that, that was not my usual self. think apart frm the fatigue...it was under pressure..sometimes i hate this grading system abt the assessing of the student. cos firstly, it's like everyone REALLY has to contribute and oso every piece of work u haf written, u haf to WRITE UR NAMe..erm..i haf this feeling rite..alex is trying to write as many things as possible...then he everytime oso 'mindmap mindmap mindmap' after that 'ok file this' n stuff..errr evil me...dunno lar..maybe i over sensitive but tt's my opinion rRITE! haha..o well..m i giving myself EXCUSES??? hahah...wadeva..dun really wanna think so much liao..i was kind of..err..dunno how to describe..cos after mr lim went off..alvin was like saying 'y u din tok??" tt kind of thing n stuff..then i was speechless..haiz...sian diao already lar..it was kinda what i expected lor..cos..haiz..i dunno..maybe i dunno them well enuff or wad??
so sad..ok..i m kinda affected here..then i saw jimei while gg home..thank god..i was really glad that i met here..at least i could tell someone abt it rather than carrying those thoughts home alone..thanks pal...was really glad that i met her...she was gg with her class to watch that play..haha..i not gg..then..i was telling here n stuff..we discuss abt econs n everything..it was a short bus trip though..dunno wad to do..think her class more fun than mine leh..as in..our class is like so...divided(?) i think it's VERY! sch work is juz choking us lar..practically most of the week i m like in sleepy mode..blur blur here n there.maybe right frm the start me in the wrong class lar! aha..shld be in S75 n above those kind..with jm n all..ahh..we havent had a good talk for a very lo0ng time already!! other than tt time during break..then i saw her..quickly sit down n tok to her..haha..miss the days in crescent...

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