okies..so jia lart leh..think i screwed some things up then eric called..the thing is, i dun dare to pick up leh..cos i dunno how to explain wad i m thinking. cos those thoughts are like how i feel bc of the situation not bc i..err..ya..so i better not blurt everything out like last time..if not things would end up in a mess again..haha..i muz write down my thought..in pt form better
-i think i m mislead to the feeling that i like eric? (yet again)
-he din cum on msn for so long! then nobody to tok to..haf lar..but not that enjoyable
-i keep on msging him lor
-i wanna take neoprints with him (cos he told me pple say he's cute n handsome..aww..not totally that reason oso)
-i think i m very superficial
-most prob i acted this way bc i got the news that weiyang n lili each juz found their partners (i dun wanna lose out)
-wanna haf someone there for me. n juz nice...eric is the one there lar
-was thinking i actually haf others to tok to..like wh, philip, shu, jimei. but somehow i juz wanted to approach him..
-but he pang seh me lots of times!
-keep on dropping hints but he din get it in anyway..or he juz doesnt wanna go out with me?
-he's not thoughtful n sensitive in anyway! wanna haf someone to tok to on the phone everynite..i wanna haf someone waiting for me at the sch gate after sch everyday..i wanna bake cookies for 'him' (erm..not referring to eric) i wanna cook for him..
-thinking n thinking..is eric the one? but i dun even noe him in person!!
-thinking tt it might be juz some feeling which does not last long
-yet again, why m i thinking so much?
-pple can get tgt so easily n why arent i accepting him up till now?
-or y m i thinking of such stuff when i rejected him already??
-i dun like to haf such a not-a-real-life relation to him. i think it's very fake.
-one more thing, wad if he's shorter than me?
-assumption : he doesnt wanna go out with me..
-eh..forgotten wad i wanted to write..
-oh yes..how does it feel like to be xing4 fu2?
-eee..i dun wan to haf my first stead so late leh!
-my target was supposed to be 15! n i m now like JC1!!!
-sho pathetic leh..haha ^_^"""
-can someone please analyse this for mee??
-issit some superficial thing?
-or it's wrong? but how cum i kinda gush at sst? actually ar..not really leh..he's so near yet so far..then alvin..wahaha i dunno he's a nice sacarstic chap..

heLp!! crIsIs...