been feeling really down for the past few days.yepp.happiness doesnt stay long, so when i smile and laugh, i really meant it.

i have the urge to pour out whatever feelings i have now, but, their all so jumbled up until i dunno how to put it into words. My present state sucks, especially after the big quarrel with my mum. Her actions shocked me greatly, i din know how to react except to fight back. yes.literally fight back.i mean the physical means. It shows that she was super worked up huh.but over such a small petty thing? i dun see any maturity in handling matters in such a way. and yes.the tears flowed.but not in front of her.tt would be so unlike me.yepp.for that brief moment, i just couldn't take it anymore, i laid down in bed and teared.sad? no.mad.extremely mad.

and wells..the chalet was the next day anyway, and i left for it.glad that i had some excuse to stay away from home. the chalet aint TT great either.but i managed to go rollerblading and get some tanning done..wahaha..ok..the tan wasnt obvious, but i wan a gradual build up so that the tan can last you see..yepps..the last time i had a sunbun, peeled and got back to my whitish self.yucks.din wanna that.actually intended to stay for the 2nd night, but looking at how things are goin, i decided to leave early.took the shuttle bus at 2. didn't go home straight, even though i was so tired.i went down to IMM with huifang.haha..she went to get her specs and i left for the supermarket.once again, i m alone.wanted to look for some stuff but it wasnt sold there, so i juz walked around, went to get the shuttle bus to clementi mrt station and headed home. nvr dreaded so much about goin home b4. there was nothing to look forward to.maybe there is, the sulky face, if u wanna count that in. reached home at about 6 plus, wash up, unpack my stuff and i headed to bed.so early huh.but i was freaking tired.haha.i slept as soon as i laid down on the bed..slpt till next morning 730am? 13 hrs straight.i havent slpt that much for a long time already.

woke up the next day, told myself i would try to keep myself occupied.It wasnt much of a hard thing to do..i played the comp till abt 1230pm and went to the library.wahaha! library eh.that would actually be the last on my 'what i wan to do for today' list. but since i had library books on loan, might as well return it and borrow some other books to read. i realised sth..my choice of books is rather different now. i would love to read on romance a couple of years ago.but i wasnt looking for that, i dunno..but i think i've gotten sick of romance stories.ok whatever it is, it's juz different.yepps..went to get fruit bars after i left the library.boy i muz say are they good.filling too.had one for breakfast this morning and it was just nice.

and today! went to school for a meeting with mr lim.finished the discussion and other matters and left abt 2pm. me, yinxian, meigee and grace headed off to ikea to find out some stuff.muz say the customer service there sux.whatever man.i was so tired i really wanted to get away..so after everything, it was already like 33opm. i went opposite to anchorpoint, came out, it was raining.darn.so i decided to take a bus from the bus stop juz outside.i din noe what bus to take. settled down on bus 33 cos i tot it went to queenstown mrt.i ended up in tiong bahru plaza and i had no idea y.the bus went on the opp. direction i wanted it to go.so i juz got off the bus there.went to popular to get seventeen instead.yepps..i felt very miserable while waiting for the bus stop.i dunno.maybe wen hui was right.the bottomline is, when u needed someone to be there, there wont be anyone afterall.i m alone.in fact, i felt like crying. but, oh well..it wont help anyway rite.heck.

whatever.