ok..after calming myself down..cos my father was really pissing me off with his stupidity and 'stubborn-ness' (if there's such a word) i was thinking maybe i shoud just settle with what i can afford with my present resources? patience..patience..

I wanna thank the Lord once again.i've prayed hard.and He answered my prayers.I wasnt praying about getting the phone.those are just worldly possessions and we cant have them for eternity.so..although i really like that mobile phone..but..it isnt that important afterall.but it's just tt sometimes the 'worldly me' just gets over the 'other me'.ahh.what m i toking abt.nvm..anyway, i finally understand that only if you keep asking Him for it, only then will He give you what you want.He gave me alot of chances but the stupid me only realise that only when i was speaking to Him.Just hope that things get for the better.but of course, He will give us what we want and we bear the consequences later. A lesson to learn. Praise the Lord! (:

guess what.i dreamt of my family last nite.lol..they were having a picnic together by the beach! HEH.so funny.i havent dreamt of my family members for a long time.and u noe what? the funniest thing is..people are sitting on toilet bowls and floating on the waters..like those floats you let it float on waters and u lie on them? wahh..super funny.hahaha..hahahaha..i remembered i wasnt laughing when i was in my dreams.i was just purely shocked.i was thinking 'oh..so toilet bowls can be floats' haha..

one day i was surfing around some webpages..they were saying, if your dreams are in colours, perhaps you had astral projected in a way..cos they seemed so real so maybe you have travelled to another space and time or something.my dreams are always in colours.i was reading about those more weird stuff like astral projection..think along those lines. they even had this page where there's just a spiral circle in the middle of the page and instructing the viewer to just stare at the spiral circle..which will somehow like help you to astral project.actually, what i was really concerned about was my religion and such stuff.i dunno how to put it across but issit something like horoscopes that God doesnt want us to read too? i dunno.but for one thing, i have stopped reading horoscopes. not that i always read them, i do that once in a while in the past. but now nopes..