It's 8:08pm now, according to the timing on my laptop. right. what a way to spend my friday. doin homework =(
haha. i have been at 1 fullerton starbucks since 1pm? man.it's an awesome place to study.
love the place. it's reasonably filled but noise level isnt that bad. manage to complete 90% of my structural stuff.. extremely trying at the last question and i was so tired..gave up in the end.. why cant they have the difficulty level turned the other way round for sequence of the questions! booo.

i had BLUEBERRY green tea ice blended (what cindy had yest) haa.it's nicee. i dunno why the staff said blackberry. since when there is blackberry hurhurhur. lols. i was laughing inside. it was a regret i din manage to take a pic of it. awww. next time i guess.

so..with $7.90..i claimed my rights to have that seat for about 7-8 hours with electricity for nickky. (i forgot how to spell) anyways. yeah..not a bad deal eh..i dun wanna gooo. but i have to, after i finish blogging.

oh.and credits to chin khiang who sent me the 3 beautiful piano pieces. It kept me company for the past 4 hours or so. just kept on repeating and repeating..and no..i din get sick of it. it's just simply wonderful.

Some thoughts filled my mind..
You were special to me. one of a kind. it felt so right.
but now, reduced to merely strangers,
Was it meant to be?
I couldnt let go. I couldnt.

Clinging on to the hope that one day there might just be some divine intervention.
Wishing that one day our paths might just meet again.
It didn't happen. nothing happened.
Life goes on. Just like how you are doing now as well.
It doesnt hurt that much anymore.

Things can never be fully explained.
Maybe some questions are better left alone.
It's 'utterly meaningless' to pursue
Or am i just thinking too much?
Doesnt really matter anymore.

Bit by bit, God is changing my heart.
The peace that resides was never more precious.
Though occasionally reminiscence of the past creeps back.
Nevertheless, i seek strength from Him.
Oh Lord, fill my heart!

You know, taking a step back from the whole situation and putting myself in God's shoes..i guess He wanted me to learn. During FISH we talked about God sending some disaster to wake people up. Yepps. prolly that's all about it. Never did i know a heart can hurt so much. Now i know how my loved ones feel when i say hurtful things to them. It's really like a stab in the heart. Knowing it and feeling it is a different kind of story..yeah..you always hear people say them..how often you know it by heart and not hard?

Just something random, i have no idea why..but I am always reminded of Solomon's 'utterly meaningless' in Ecclesiastes. it's Solomon right!! hope i am not wrong. yeah..pursuits of the world is so meaningless. So what? so what if i had this this this and that. So what?! oh wells. at the end of the day, humans are reduced to nothing but ashes. How sad. yet people do everything they can to get them. I do fall into this trap at times..

ok.i am leaving starbucks. heading home.

time reads 8:59pm.