Well, i just came back from Connect conference! A few lessons i took back during the past 2 days..

Hmmm. There was one message on the first night. 7-9pm and then the next day from 9am -7pm..we had four messages in total! It's madness..i feel like a sponge absorbing and absorbing. But of course i din absorb blindly, it's just that there were alot to think about..

Well..It's always that few messages that we hear, about Jesus' lordship over our lives, to love your neighbour as you would love yourself, to lead the extraordinary life to reach out to people..blah. But you know, it's a whole new different meaning to me whenever i hear it. A re-dedication of my life to the Lord. It got me to think that why am i so troubled by things that are so insignificant, investing my time and energy thinking about things that are so unecessary. What about the others whom i havent shown my love to? God is bringing people into my lives yet, have i cared for the flock of God that is entrusted to me?

Wow. God, I cant believe you entrusted them to me. like..ME?! NG WEI CHEN?

I guess, wherever you lead me..

My thoughts are somewhat in a mess now..but..i brought home afew verses with me..

Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
~ Matt 6:33 NIV

"Hear, O Israel: the Lord is our God, the Lord alone. You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might."
~Deu 6:4,5

Those two verses taught me that, it's not just about putting God as your priority in life. The word "Priority" is like..you have these list of things to do and after you're done with God, you go on to complete other things on the list. It requires total lordship. It requires the heart, soul, mind and body. How much have i submitted myself to the Lord? Have i fully grasp the meaning of 'Lord' when i use it? Is there a dichotomy in my life..am i just a double face christian who behaves differently in church and not-in-church?

God, i pray that you change my life..TOTALLY.

"The second is this, 'YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.' There is no other commandment greater than these." ~Mark 12:31 NASB

Loving someone. Hmm. well, there were other thoughts going on in my mind..

Today, i went to barker with Amenda and she was just sharing a story with me. Somehow, i just feel that, everytime she shares, it's something that i am going through as well, the experiences are very similar and this makes it feel close to my heart. It makes me see how others react when going through the same situation and i tallied this against how i react.. I wondered, God? are you trying to tell me something? I dont know. but i'll KIV it.

bahh.i am kinda tired. shall wrap up and go sleep. there's so much that i wanna say yet i don't know where to begin with. madness.

God, May you plant the desire in me to love my neighbour as i would love myself. Help me work towards Christ-likeness and to walk closely with you.