beneath the genuine worry for the structural systems lies the thoughts about the content of the lesson. Incidentally, this was one of the topic over dinner with Joel 2 days ago. about 'honesty' and guess what? today FISH covered on truth and consequence. what hinders a fullfiling relationship with a friend? i knew very well the focus of the lesson (in the way it spoke to me) the lack of honesty in a relationship has created a blockage, eventually causing a distance greater and greater and ultimately becoming non-existent. Ephesians 4:15 says to speak the truth in love. yeah. but i guess honesty goes two ways. you wanna speak the truth, yet you never know how the other party will take it when you let him/her know the truth. The world says to just let things be and 'everything will be fine' yeah. that's what we always think .. just let it die down. but there will always be this 'silent conflict' underneath those smiles and what nots. yeah..like what i am thinking now. there is. yet, there's nothing i can do about it can i? I have set my mind to let things be cos i have little wish to pursue whatever possible relationship that might ever come outta this reconciliation. however, at the deepest corner of my heart, i know it's something that is of great importance to me.
But no, i cant just let things be? God tells us there should not be any falsehood. but how can you reconcile when there is no mutual consensus to do so..yes. we need to weigh the consequences..to think of how the other party might react and stuff..and the days pass..months after the incident..and then you dunno whether to bring it up or not. cos it's like so yesterday..it would seem ridiculous to even mention it. that would seem more like picking up a fight. the meeting of the minds..how difficult would that be..
i guess i had my fair share about speaking the truth and got into serious trouble. at the same time hiding it to prevent confrontation of any sort..well.i am a confrontational sort of person.(maybe u just havent seen that side of me) especially when i am angry about it, i dun give a heck about what other people think. but that's not 'speaking the truth in love' that's just to vent your frustration. solely for the self benefit. but what about the times when you really wanna say/do something to mend a broken relationship..yet the other party just doesnt wanna face it or they just say there's nothing wrong when there's obviously some form of hinderance.. in time to come, you just tell yourself.. yeah.. it's time to give up.. the knot in your heart still stays..the more i think about it, the more frustration there is, in addition to the regret..
God, what do You want from me? seriously. you told me to trust you. yes i am doing that right now. to wait and see what You can do. so what's this thing about being truthful even tho it might there are so many possible risks . it's really difficult to be a christian. haha.. gone are the days when i just dont care. and such things would never mean a thing to me cos anyone is just another person walking pass my life..there's nothing that needs to be done.. but after discovering spiritual Truths, you step into a path of no return.. but where do i walk to now?
nice one from daena... the silent conflict...
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