well well. was studying in school today. what a pleasant surprise! while i was waiting for the lift..there came xiao qian running. lols. at least another person for company..there was joyce too!! and later came joel who bluff me he wasnt coming. bahh. liar liar pants on fire. kah hong was around too..looking quite tired as well. bahh. everyone is just so worn out by the exams. and poor xq was in pain cos of cramps. sucky to be like that during exams.. anyhows..
was studying halfway..hmms. suddenly i just got super emo la. the word 'fear' came to my mind and then it kinda linked to alot of other things. well. save the words. a picture speaks alot more..so i drew a mindmap.(actually i was just lazy to write out my thoughts) haha. ok..the picture just right below is the 'first draft' (is there past tense for 'term'? haha)
the mindmap looks weird leh..how can God be a branch of fear? so here's the revised one.
fear. not about the supernatural. fear of losing your loved ones..the fear of stepping into the future.. maybe put it this way..let's just say when i am enjoying myself at this moment..suddenly it will just hit me that..one day all these will end..and then i just feel very emo. whywhywhy. one day you might just lose everything you have. not talking about the money & materialism. it's the people around you. isnt that scary. no idea why i thought of all these..maybe it's the dragonboaters thingy..
what about..is it scary to lose the ability to love others?
and then i remembered a sms that joel sent.
He who gathered much did not haf too much, n he who gathered little had no lack.
-2 Cor 8:15 .. God's principle of distribution and giving.
doubt it was intentional on his part..but..hmms..maybe this verse is REMOTELY linked to what i was thinking. i dunno. somewhat..of course it would be totally irrelevant in the context of that chapter..oh wells. but what's the good news? everything is in God's hands..only He knows the big picture. just gotta have faith in Him in leading you.. have i fully put my trust in Him? despite so many encouragements He has been giving..subtly.. sometimes i just feel like slapping myself. haha..dumbass.
actually i'm quite an emo person. but of course cant be emo 24/7 laaa. haahaa..
ta.