Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost
Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross
You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen
To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your hear
this song kinda struck a chord in my heart today. no idea why..but.. I havent been close to God recently. feeling carnal in all aspects of my life..and i know. i know working has always been a pitfall for me. money and its temptation.. but it was since young my parents had kinda driven into me that money is important, always think of how to profit from things that you do. You know what? that kind of thinking is still ever present in the family. And ever since i had the ability to earn money, this has gotten me into a struggle. Simple example, my whole holiday was devoted to working. my exams end on fri, i started work on monday worked till 3 days before the next semester started, had a short holiday in between. My parents encouraged it and they are more than happy to see me working.
where lies the repentance in me?
But i have so many wishlists? From a car to a fujifilm finepix S100fs to shopping sprees to holiday getaways to revamping my room to coloured eye contacts to blah blah blah. the list goes on.
Living in the light. ha. i must be clouded by darkness now.
Lead me to the Cross..once again..
you might ask..so what are gonna do from now? i dunno..track my expenses?
1 John 1:5-7
This is the message he has given us to announce to you: God is light and there is no darkness in him at all. So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God buy go on living in spiritual darkness. We are not living in the truth. But if we are living in the light of God's presence, just as Christ is, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from every sin. (NLT)
I like this perspective:
the fellowship with each other that brings us close to God. The responsibility that we take to be accountable to one another that allows us to keep each other going and come back to God who cleanses us of our sins. I wouldnt have continued to try to 'Live in the light' if not for the people around me. Their testimony of trying to do so is sufficiently encouraging for me. I need my friends (and God, of course) around me and i have only come to realise this only when i was in J1. ha. and since then, there's this fear to lose the people around me but then again, what i have done to show my concern? what have i done for others? What have i been focusing on? What have I been intently concentrating on to be blind to other people's hurt? Where comes the heavenly wisdom?
Some verse in Proverbs says..(i cant remember exactly)..the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
ok. talking about wisdom would lead me to another whole new topic..my mind is always coherently messy. coherent to me tho..like the splatter of stars in the sky but somehow you can make a picture outta it. haha.. anyway i dont have to time to type it down now..gtg.
Lead me to the cross..